Living in lightness—physically, emotionally and spiritually is my goal for this year. Part of that journey is accepting that I’m not perfect, my life is not perfect and that it never will be perfect. The big lesson for me is that I am enough. My life is enough. It’s better to present, rather than always […]
I remember looking down at my legs in a gymnastics class and wondering why they were chubby. That was the first time I thought I was fat. The first time I compared myself to others. In grade seven I was the third tallest girl in my class and the third heaviest. I felt shame. When […]
Present Over Perfect book club: Fake Resting ‘How are you?’ ‘I’m busy.’ I was busy for years and before I knew it I was real tired. In fact, I was exhausted. Real-exhausted. I was working, the mother to two children, had a weekend volunteer position, a leader of mid-week meetings, family responsibilities, exercise and the […]
Present Over Perfect Blog book club: Tunnels I sat on the couch next to my husband and every word he spoke grated against my soul. It was like fingernails scratching down an old-school blackboard. Everything in me felt scraped and raw and I wanted to scream, ‘Shut up!’ I didn’t scream at him, even though […]
Present over Perfect book club: Sea-change I ended last year with a crash. Running on adrenalin and coffee for years on end, allowing my body, mind and soul to fracture resulted in a ‘frantic and frayed’ life. I craved silence. I craved a slower, considered, quieter, soulful life. I hankered for the days before the tyranny […]
In the noise, we hear voices of not good enough and you’ll never do it. In the noise, we feel the tension and stress of busyness in our bodies. We’re scared that we’ll find even darker places in the silence and perhaps not be able to face ourselves, but grace is found in silence. We know our adrenalin […]
I don’t actually have a lot of problems with competition. I have the occasional twinge of jealousy, but I immediately channel it into a note, an encouraging comment on Facebook, or a text. What gets me is comparison and not measuring up. I’m not as good as that person. That effort wasn’t as good as […]
This crash had been coming a long time and my retreat wasn’t a quiet withdrawal, it was more a full-blown defeat. My inner supply of whatever it was I needed to go on was done. Someone said to me recently, ‘But you don’t work. You don’t have a job.’ I know what he meant. I […]
There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming. Shauna Niequist I call myself a writer, but I haven’t written anything in the last two weeks. Travelling in Italy has been distracting to say the least, but that’s not the real issue. I don’t […]
